Hold me down, I am floating away.

My life's soundtrack

2009-02-24T01:08:10Z

1. Open your music player (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, etc).
2. Put it on shuffle.
3. Press play.
4. For every question type the song that’s playing. When you go to a new question press the next button.

Tagline: Iris, Goo Goo Dolls.

Opening Credits: Don't Ask Me, Ok Go.

Waking Up: Bad Habit, Gregory and the Hawk.

Working song: Get Over It, Ok Go.

Falling in Love: If I Fell in Love With You, Maroon 5 cover.(hahahaha fitting)

Sex: I caught Fire, The Used. (nice)

Lusting: Unnoticed, Plumb.

Cooking Dinner: Speeding Cars, Imogen Heap.

Walk in the Park: My Rollercoaster, Kimya Dawson.

Working out at the gym: Crooked Teeth, Death Cab for Cutie.

Fight scene: Look What You've Done, Jet.

Breaking up: I Am the Walrus, Bono cover.(hahah riiiight)

Secret Love: The Jeep Song, The Dresden Dolls.

Life’s okay: Bittersweet, Plumb.

Mental breakdown: All the Pretty Corpses, Schoolyard Heroes.

Partying: Lucky in the Sky with Dimonds, Bono cover.

Long Night Alone: Piazza New York Catcher, Belle & Sebastian.(awww)

Final Battle: Backstabber, The Dresden Dolls.

Death Scene: Of Angels and Angles, The Decemberists.

Funeral: Sugar, We're Goin Down, Fall Out Boy.(hahah yay)

Closing Credits: Samson, Regina Spektor.

My week so far.

2008-11-21T05:07:27Z

Monday.
Went to see my Therapist, I actually like going to talk to her.
We talked about My uncle, and this week end and stuff.
Then I just went home and hung out there.

Tuesday.
Went to get Job applications from different places with my Grandpa, then we went to the casino with my uncle Jerry and my auntie Carol, we had a late lunch there. My Grandpa won some money, and my Uncle Jerry lost some money.
Then we came home.

Wensday.
Turned in the Job apps and then went and reted the second Resident Evil, and the third and fourth Saw movies, then I went with Jenny so she could buy Wall-E. We went back to her house and watched the Saw movies, wow love them, I cant wait to see the fifth! After the movies I helped her make her shirt for Twilight on Friday, and she let me Barrow the third Resident Evil movie, so I cane home and had a Resident Evil night.
It was awsome!

Thrusday/Today.
Went to Jenny's this afternoon and watched Kung Fu panda, Love it!
I helped her make dinner, and said hi to her mom, then we ate and looked up different tattoo's online.
Now I am home.

Her and I are going early tomarrow to get our Twilight tickets, then we are going to see it tomarrow night!
I'm excited.
=]

Questions?

2008-11-12T20:39:10Z

The problem with LJ: we all think we are so close, but really, we know nothing about each other. So I want you to ask me something you think you should know about me. Something that should be obvious, but you have no idea about. Ask away. Then post this in your LJ and find out what people don't know about you!

Ask away!

Tell me a secret.

2008-10-01T03:57:43Z

Post anything that you want, and post it anonymously.

Anything.
a story,
a secret,
a confession,
a fear,
a love,
ANYTHING.

Be sure to post anonymously and honestly. Post more than once, if you'd like. Then, put this in your LJ to see what your friends (and perhaps others who you don't even realize read your LJ) have to say.

Survey

2008-10-01T00:06:21Z

The phone rings ; What is your ring tone?
Depends on who it is, But my general rington is Disterbia.

Name one fact about the person you like?
He loves her.

Last time you talked to your mom?
Sometime in July.

Where are you right now?
living room.

Latest you stayed up in the past week?
4 am.

What is the last thing you said aloud?
Bye.

Last time you went to church?
Sometime in August.

Story behind your MySpace song?
It reminds me of how I feel about someone.

Wearing?
pPJ's

Wanting?
My grandpa to get home so we can go out to eat Mongolian Grill
=]

Listening to?
The commentarie on A Walk to Remember.

Do you sleep?
Always.

Do you like seafood?
Not at all.

Do you remember your dreams?
Sometimes.

Do you speak another language other than English?
Sign Language.

The way to win your heart?
Give me yours.

Last person to say "i love you"?
I think Jesse.

When was the last time you really laughed?
Dont remember.

When is the last time you took a nap?
Last night.

Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
Yes.

If you could work at any clothing store, which store would you pick?
IDK. There are a lot of good ones.

Who is the last person you sent a comment/message on myspace?
Jesse.

Who was your last hug?
Shahida.

Who is the FIRST person you thought of this morning?
Wardon...

Who was the FIRST person you talked to today?
My Grandpa.

What was the FIRST thing you did this morning?
Took out my retainers.

When is the last time you talked to your father?
When I was 10.

Do you prefer a call or a text?
Text.

Have / do you drink milk straight from the carton?
I have, but I dont like to.

Do you like anyone now?
Always.

Who were you with last night around 9:00pm?
Myself.

Where is your brother right now?
Dont have one.

Do you bite your fingernails?
I try not to.

Do you like Mexican food?
yea.

What are you looking forward to in the next month?
Getting a job.

When is the last time you talked to number 1 on your top friend?
A cupple days ago.

Do you live with both of your parents?
Nope.

Does anyone call you babe?
Yeah, Jenn and Angie.

Did you kiss or hug anyone today?
no.

What jewelry are you wearing?
My Cladgh (Angel) ring.

Have you ever in anyway, been betrayed by someone you trust?
Hasent everyone.

Do you find it in your heart to forgive?
Always.

At what age do you want to get married?
Dont even know if I want to get married.

Do you like snakes?
Yea. =]

Do you like waffles?
Yummm.

Recently kissed anyone with the name starting with a "R"?
Nope.

Has anyone ever mistaken you for a family member on the phone?
Yeah.

If all your friends went on a road trip would you go too?
If I was invited yeah.

Do you think someone is thinking of you right now?
Problably not.

Who was the last person you talked on the phone with?
My Grandpa.

What's the weather like outside?
Sunny.

How's your mood?
Could be better.

Have you ever seen a 3D movie in theaters?
Yup.

Have you ever had a panic attack?
Unfortunatly.

What were you doing at 8:00 this morning?
Sleeping.

Do you like your life as of now?
Not really, no.

Are you a jealous person?
Sometimes.

Are you tired right now?
Kinda.

Do you have any siblings?
Only half.

Are you mad at someone right now?
No.

Disappointed?
Not really, kinda.

Does anyone like you?
Not that I know of.

What were you doing 2 hours ago?
Watching a Movie.

Do you wear the seatbelt in the car?
Its the law.

Are you hanging out with anyone tonight?
Not that I know of, maybe.

Are your parents still together?
Nope.

Lost.

2008-09-29T06:20:27Z

Sometimes I fantisize, or daydream, and when I say sometimes, I mean all the time.
I look back on things that have happened, and I change them, Put in people that werent really there, or add on conversations that would never happen.
Sometimes I just make up completly different situations, and I act them out inside my head, all the time.
Sometimes I cant tell the difference between whats real and whats not.
And part of me doesnt want to know, because life is so shitty right now, that what I create in my head, even if its really bad, is still better than reality.
I'm lost, and I cant find my way back.
But I like this dream land I'm in.
I dont know if I want someone to wake me up, or just let me sleep.
Cause I'm so very tierd.
=/

Uh-man-duh...

2008-06-21T06:40:28Z

I should think that if people were to get the wrong impression of me, the one to which you so eloquently refer, it wouldn't be the wrong impression in the slightest.

My name is Amanda.
But most people call me Manda, NOT ~~Mandy~~
I’ve never met some of my best friends.
I daydream almost every minute of everyday.
I always assume the worst is coming, and I think things are much worse than they actually are.
I get my hopes up, but am usually disappointed.
I get hurt easily, and I hate crying in front of people.
I’m scared to love again, because of how many times I have been hurt.
I try to push people away before they can do that to me.
Because it’s better to hurt yourself, than to be hurt by someone else.
I say “I'm sorry” a lot, even if I didn’t do it, and it’s not my fault.
I don’t always know what to say, so sometimes I don’t say anything.
I always try to please other people, so I sometimes forget about myself.
I’m very forgiving, and will most likely forgive you for whatever you’ve done to me.
I’m scared of being alone and forgotten.
I always try to help anyone & everyone, just ask.
I always listen to everyone’s problems, but I feel bad when I tell them mine.
I do more for other people than I do for myself, but don’t try to walk all over me, I won’t let you.
I think my friends lie when they tell me I’m beautiful, but I don’t think I’m ugly.
My friends are the biggest, most important, part of my life.
They always support me, and are there for me no matter what.
They glue me back together after I’ve fallen apart.
I have a past, that isn’t pretty.
I’m scared to take chances, but only because I don’t want to fail.
I hate disappointing people.
I keep secrets, but so does everyone else.
I depend on people to much.
I can be determined and passionate about something’s.
I’m very random, and say the first silly thing that comes to mind.
If you’re around me when I’m happy, you will laugh until you cry.
If you’re around me when I’m sad, you will cry until you laugh.
I love meeting people who change my life.
I like to think I will change yours.
I think I’m not worth much, but I have been wrong before.
I won’t back down when I think I’m right, but I will admit when I’m wrong.
I can be a real bitch, so don’t be rude.
I’m smarter than people think.
I love to prove people wrong, and change their opinions about me.
I’m full of surprises.
I shock people.
I can be sweet and kind, but then I will turn around and be rude and vulgar.
Sometimes I wish I could just live in my mind, the worlds I create there are better that the real one.
Stars are my favorite shape, my grandma used to say it’s because I was born one.
My mind moves faster than the rest of me.
Sometimes I’m clever.
I want to be a writer, but I’m extremely lazy.
I’m slightly perverted, and immature, but you’ll love me for it.
I’m self cautious and unsure, but that’s part of my charm.
A lot of people have already given up on me, so I sometimes expect it.
I can’t promise you that you will be my first, or last anything, but you might be the best.
I give away my heart easily, and I always care too much.
I’m very stubborn, and I refuse to give up on people, even when everyone else already has.
I’m very mischievous.
I have recently begun to measure choices not by right or wrong, but by weather or not I will have regrets; this tends to get me into trouble.
I always get myself into the worse situations.
I believe in the power of words, they can heal the soul.
I hate to lie, but do it anyway; there are only a handful of people that I can’t lie to.
Despite that, I’m honest more often than not.
I’m NOT self-centered or selfish, no matter how many sentences I start with “I”.
I’m not innocent, or pure, I have scares, and bad memories.
I’ve been damaged, broken, and fixed, I’m held together with glue and duck-tape.
But I still think I’m a good person, with an amazing personality, and a big heart.
I will love you for forever, if you stay.
The End.
<3

[Told you I was a writer]

Friends Only

2007-06-27T04:05:55Z

Friends only

Comment and I will add you back.
-Peace
Manda.